How Will She Ever Keep This a Secret? Part 5

"Babe! Hun, open your eyes!" But he knows, he feels it, she won't open her eyes because she is losing, she is falling apart. "Honey please, fight this, don't let the music end." For a moment he is there, crying silently in dismay, in relief, in utter confusion. Then she opens her eyes, 'I'm trying...' Those words lifted him through the clouds; he knew there and then that they are going to make it.

As she lies on the bed, she finds herself spilling to him all she has been hiding. She shows him her chest and he falls, how could he have been so blind? Is it that he saw and knew but felt it best to pretend not to? She holds his head but it's not the same, it is distant, not comforting...he can't fix this alone.

"How can you love someone and hate them so much? Is that possible? He hurts me to the core when I see him...I am unable to be, think or even breathe. But the moment he looks up I remember the brightness that shun within him, I remember the way his words made me dance. This was not his fault, he did not do this neither did he want this...but somehow he is the only person standing here with blood stains still on his hand. His fingers are marked in my back and on my stomach...he is the one. Tortured inside me, I still feel his being…He listens and watches me as I slip through the cracks of what use to be. He takes the burden of my shell and he decides to carry it...he sees the remnants of what use to be on my skin, but he knows we will get through this...for better, not worse.

Hanging on…

Hanging on…

So after watching So You Think You Can Dance yesterday, I have been listening to ‘Hanging on’ by Active Child alot. It had me thinking though… when do we really know to let go and when do we keep hanging on?

A relationship is on the rocks and you have to make a decision, do you continue to fight a battle constantly lost? Do you just decide that enough is enough?

There are some things that I would consider. Things like is he fighting just as hard as I am? Does he love me? Do I love him? Am I doing this because I believe it can work? Or am I just afraid of what will happen when it doesn’t?

Every relationship has its own struggles, some harder than others, but it is up to you and your partner to decide that this is worth it. If its bigger than you think, seek outside help. Therapy is not for the mentally insane or the weak, its for people who are brave enough to realize they need help.

If the relationship means that much to you, you will fight. Sometimes its hard to know when enough is enough, but it will come. Just ensure that in all the struggles, you are able to look at that person and love them, just as they are able to do to u. A relationship isn’t a one woman or one man show, so don’t hold on because you don’t like to fail, or because he/she loves you. You do no one any favours by piting them. Remember that.

Anywho, that was just my little bit, I hope I haven’t offended anyone, just in the mood to write about something. Also, I wasn’t really prepared so it may not be perfect.