How Will She Ever Keep This a Secret? Part 6

When we lose something valuable, we can’t help but thinking of what we could do to get it back, we can’t help but thinking how much it contributed to our lives. We become stuck in this place of wishful thinking, regret and guilt. We want to move forward, we want to break free but we can’t. We are simply stuck.

As he came in the room she noticed him dressed in a suit and she immediately smiled, “What’s the occasion?” her smile slowly faded as he started to explain to her that he wants her to accompany him to church. Her voice trembled and beads of sweat decided to make their debut. She was in total shock at what he proposed but suddenly she felt so much more for him in that very moment. She knew.

“It is always hard to go through the pain of losing something, someone or any trial. It isn't easy because not everything is. But as humans we live a very complicated life, but a life with hope, joy and peace just as much as the other bad things we can’t let go of. Every day we wake up, we go into the world holding on to things, some good and some not so good. Every day we punish ourselves holding on to all this pain, instead of leaving it at the feet of God. We hold on to these things that make us stuck, things that keep us from moving on in FAITH. Conflict will arise, Controversy will arise, and hard times will arise, but to deal with that, we all need courage and faith in God. We have to be strong enough to cry not without hope, but in good faith. We have to be strong enough to leave it at His feet and live life the way we ought. No we are not saying forget your sorrow, we are saying take the first step required to move on. Be honest with yourself and God. Find the strength! Find the strength in God!”

She sat there not realizing the tears and the warm hand on her shoulder. She sobs as she holds on to her center. She holds close the place that was once a home for another life. She holds close the place that is now haunted by life lost. She holds close the place she feels ruined her. In that moment she admitted the truth, she has been blaming herself all along and it was time to LET IT GO.